October 12, 2022
“I Talk to the TV”: A Prayer
O Lord, I talk to the TV, I really do, but then you know I do,
talk to the TV,
talk to characters
in the mysteries we love to watch
(You moron, don’t go downstairs in the dark
to check out that strange noise!);
talk to reporters
shoving microphones in the faces of
distraught relatives
(Why can’t you,
leave those poor people alone?);
talk to some of my
not so favorite people, newsreaders
(Okay, on cue now, serious face, happy face, sad face.);
and talk to a
lawnmower,
when I had one
(I’ll give you
one more chance
to start, or else … );
and to
leaky commodes
repaired
but still leaking
(as in bleep, bleep, bleep);
and to
telephone recordings
assuring me
that someone will
soon be with me
(Oh right, what, in my next life?);
and talk to
fellow drivers,
well, not talk exactly,
scream
more like it,
seething;
and to
officious officials,
pothole bureau bureaucrats,
potholes rivaling the Grand Canyon,
pothole people procrastinating,
seething;
and to
politicians
living in my head,
lying through their teeth,
leaving a bad taste in my mouth,
seething;
and talk to
the sky,
trees,
flowers,
birds,
little lizards
scurrying home, talk about
beauty,
thankfulness,
everything.
But the thing is, O Lord, I’m not sure why I talk to
the TV or leaky commodes or pothole people or
any of the other things or people
I talk to,
because
don't answer back
(well, maybe the sky or
a tree or flower does
now and then), and
because
doesn't do any good,
the moron still goes downstairs in the dark
and gets bonked on the head,
the leaky commode
still leaks,
potholes
still jar my teeth;
no answers coming,
nothing changing,
nothing happening
except what always happens;
but
I keep
talking away,
I'm not sure why.
And the thing is, Lord, it's how I often approach prayer,
as you well know,
talking to you
anyway,
talking to you
even though
no answer often the answer,
even when
doesn't seem to do any good,
even though
nothing comes (at least, not peace),
nothing changes (violence still having its way),
nothing happens (same old, same old),
just wishful thinking,
talking to the TV;
but I
keep talking
anyway,
because
that's faith,
that “anyway”
is faith,
the faith
that trusts
that unlike
the TV or cranky lawnmower or leaky commode,
you do answer,
and unlike
pothole people or politicians,
you do something,
something
comes,
changes,
happens;
at least
that's the truth of it
for me,
because
when I've needed
more strength, more determination, more resolution
to keep going,
more strength, more determination, more resolution
have come; and
because
here and there
I see evil overcome,
brave people changing things,
hope happening as people live
the truth, the Gospel;
because
now and then
the trees, the flowers, the sky
answer me
and bless me with peace, healing, joy;
and so help me,
help us all
to keep talking to you
anyway,
always.
O Lord, we pray as we pray every week for all who are ill,
who are hospitalized, who are hurting, who are dying,
who are grieving, and the hungry and homeless
and refugees of this world.
Let us be
the answer, people who change things, people through whom
hope and healing and comfort and food and aid come,
who doing something in your name.
O Lord, I don't know how many others talk to TV's or
approach prayer the way I do,
but whether
it's just me
or many,
I pray that
all of us will
keep praying
anyway,
and
entrust ourselves
to your
grace and mercy.
Amen.